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Things I Wanna Do
I wanna do everything but that's impossible. Sometimes it's hard to even do one thing.
Everything!
Look, I wanna do everything but that's impossible. Sometimes it's hard to even do one thing. It's not about being capable for doing a thing, it's about spending the time doing the thing and enjoying the process. Something something immediate gratification.
If the thing I wanna do isn't something I already know how to do, I'm going to struggle to do the thing. Again, not about capability - I have learned (learnt?) how to do hard things before, I guess I just like the easy path?
I'll spend 50 hours building a whole bespoke blogging platform (done this multiple times) because I want to write but I steal the potential dopamine from writing by thinking about writing while building the platform. Then once I'm done building I don't write, really. When I want to write again, I build again. It's like I'm stealing joy from myself.
I need to find topics I'm more interested in writing about. I like writing about my thoughts but those pieces of writing tend to be very personal and soul exposing. I don't really want to publish those. This itself is a rework of a ramble I wrote so I felt I could publish it. To try and bust out of the rut.
Anyway. I want to do everything.